20.2.23

Odd, i’m thinking I never feel totally completely awake in the winter.

6pm winter is not 6pm summer. Summer at 6 you’re thinking ah - 4 more hours of daylight.


I can feel winters work coming to an end. 

The internal begins to move outwards, more and more.


Doing good work, on a plateau. But working towards an ascension piece. It’s fairly obvious. A push through piece. And then another plateau. I can always point to those works in retrospect. The art has a deep resonance. They wipe me out … but i always seem to be chasing that high - ever since I felt it. It’s times like these that I rely on imagination, more than intelligence. 


My greatest relationships have been with artists. Working collaborations. Collaborating. That’s always been my true quite profound excitement.


I do love the idea that artwork comes from a deeper place than personality. If there’s a line up of people and a line of art - who could match them up?




7.2.23

 

I have figured a few things out. Thanks for all the clues.


Random thoughts: 


The skin of the place that separates is very thin. 


New / Like-New; In the theater world when a contemporary garment is built the best compliment you can receive is that it looks store-bought-new. A warm hat and great-coat may be seen for 15 seconds in the dark. As the tenor dashes onto the stage and into the aria throwing off the winter garments - the stage lights glow on and the prize for 30 hours of studio work is seen in a pile on the couch.


Still: i am humbled and amazed at the energy that flows through and what is created by hand.


Tip your hat with a knowing of an outcome already done — if you're asking, this implies it does not exist. 


In standing still one can be in fashion every - 12 years? - or so, without ever having to change.


When anger leaves what has been fueling you that is when honest reckoning begins.

Honest Reckoning - unlike absolute change - is not always dynamic immediate and unchangeable. 


"I couldn't believe it to be" - I like that immensely.


I was just wondering if - when a rabbit gets out of its coop she’s thinking she’s leaving the free world and getting into a cage. 


And remembering when i was a kid, i thought small talk meant you use short words.


One more - just when I thought I was down so low —  the soundtrack at the A&P spills out Jackson Browne. Possibly the original emo.



Still thinking … but that's the wonder of the thinking.

-images and details from the shard corpus.