2.4.24






When it's ‘ok’ from both sides…

 it reminds me of those cartoons where you put your foot out there + you get flattened by traffic.


i don’t watch the news at night. Because strangers faces will taint my nighttime dreams. i will dream a wall of confusion. + already i awake not knowing if my dreams were partial films i have seen recently, or in fact, where dreams. Sometime it all seems like the 42nd dimension.


If only it had some deeper meaning. Sometimes a dream is something so obvious it becomes embarrassing.


My realization upon waking this morning is that i EVER loose my mind, i want an unknowing bliss to transfer  w/ it’s absence + so to not to realize i’ve lost it —  because waking + knowing you have lost your mind is very frightening.


Life is such an add on…. my greatest relationships have been w/ other artists. Working. Collaborating. That’s always been my true quite profound excitement. 


Off-book sometimes means that i unknowingly forget to drag the playbook along. It’s then that i’m really listening to another + find it easier to give back + communicate in a bona fide way … not planning + composing an answer before i know what is needed.


We are older we need to permit ourselves to be off-book. We have worked at this life + have the last 40+ years of push behind us - if we allow ourselves, yes, we know what to say in the next 5 minutes. As to any craft any, it took 40 years + another 5 minutes to complete. + that’s my pep talk to you + myself. 


-above+ below practicing the back-to-basics