That whatever-it-may-be comes in infinite packages, everyone has one. Mine is building Meraki Issues. Each quarterly perzine is a deep blend on an overall theme. It’s also a challenging project that keeps me honest + on the rails.
From my seat, making mistakes, collecting images, drafting prose + confessions have always been an important part of what encompasses my studio work. This is the nitty gritty process stuff that may never see the light of day, never hit the gallery, or even become full blown finished. Some ideas are really never meant to leave the studio, or even the kitchen table, don’t you agree? But i believe all the bits deserve a way out. The zine form accommodates.
i stop myself when noticing i’m beginning to fit into a preconceived template. i do think it is important to have a somewhat clear, yet fluid, vision as to what you want from life at different chapters, because life seems ultimately short + one can waste a whole bunch of time rattling around rather quickly — i'm talking decades. i try to be content wherever i find myself in the process.
I was laying in bed one night and I thought, 'I'll just quit. To hell with it.' And another little voice inside me
said 'Don't quit. Save that tiny little ember of spark. And never give them that spark because as long as
you have that spark, you can start the greatest fire again.’ -Charles Bukowski
You live your life as if it’s real ... The evidence accumulates that you’re not running the show. You still have to make choices as if you were running the show, but you make your choices with the intuitive understanding that it’s unfolding as it must ... And if you can relax in that ... if you can even touch it, or if it asserts itself from time to time, then the invincible defeat is transcended. -Leonard Cohen
