… redirection is in order. Not exactly a new direction,
but a mental turning around. Okay, not so much a mental turning — as a looking
past. Past options, those were long ago voided out by other reasons and decisions
that were uncontrollable. Control suggests need or want. Good thing everything
is not controllable. We’d each have bloody hands and be dragging around Santa
bags full of dirty rags all of our lives. Who’d be friends with someone who
sounds so familiar?
Why not grab hold of hyakutake? Every once in a while it comes looming by, which means it comes
closer every day, even when it is leaving.
It comes by from another
goldilocks zone, within spit distance … close enough for communication and
trade. Boons.
I glide toward the meeting place, my feet dragging scooping
up sludge into it grows like a snowball in front of me. Dodging and skipping
along the street that seemed to have a theme of pot holes. I saw a stranger watching me from a
noir shadow.
He gave me a nod, Yes, watch
out; plot holes.
I meet up, join and follow
others feeling the series of events, twist and blind turns currently eluding
me. Noticing the writing on the walls, reading an interior dialogue on a
one-way mirror. You know how your mind jumps to this hither and thither thing
while you are in deep concentration with the other? Hypnogogic hallucination,
involves seeing or hearing things just as you fall asleep. This is that. If
this is a severing with reality the break feels natural, though wondering how
to decipher. No telling, not knowing.
It’s not the nightly happy phantoms charmed by a conducting
Orpheus. This is an uncontrolled waking dream of comatose, passing the pearly
gates of how cliché.
love the b & w's. of course, your prose never ceases to confound me. In a good way.
ReplyDeleteLessons learned. Carpe diem. Hmm...
ReplyDeletePlease let this not be a 'dream'. As stream of consciousness goes, it works but still trying to work out what's going on.
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