I felt the fall, but not the
flip-flop: I landed on my feet. No, I reminded myself, you still cannot move
your legs.
It doesn’t make the kind of
since I am use to. The type that connects to a sequential moment, or is a reaction
to the last moment, or working up to the next moment. This moment. This next
moment. A storyteller is a dream maker. Unless you are never released.
I am busy, at this
moment, plastering exploded drawings onto a wall with watery glue using a large
brush. Everything from red wagon building instructions to metal stairways to a toilet to
scales to guns to an oscillograph to; trusting you get the linear picture. I keep backing away including
more of the wall onto my peripheral vision. I was unsure if I needed the
information or if I was leaving it for posterity. Because chalk lines don’t
last. This plastering a new layer
of instructional material would never end. I needed only to hold the torch for the moment. I was
in the golden glow of Vesuvio’s bathroom in North Beach. A familiar place,
where hopes dangle from thin string, a slow-spinning redemption, winding in and
winding out. There are many voices on the other side of the door. I am
captiv/aided into a reverie.
The door opened wide and I
bolt with a question, “What will you have?”
“I won’t drink.”
“Obviously you do, what will
you have?”
The bar-back was so thin I
heard someone out there say she could be used as a weapon. I looked past the
tender to the images on the walls. The glass coverings were chipped in the
corner and smeared with lipstick and grime. The fingery haze of smoke began to
tighten my throat.
“I’ll have sky-pie.”
A slice was handed to me as
the heavily anise lased aroma hit between the eyes. I took a bite and mentally
backed away from the intensity as my mouth went numb with the condensed flavor.
Arguments ebb and flow in a
chaotic human mess. I wanted to yell that the bat was on his way, even through the
cacophony was too loud to have been effective. Was I the bat? For sure, he and I had never
been seen in the same room … kinda use to make ‘em wonder … but I could no longer play that card since the
Batman died. Insults were flung in my direction. If that where true I’d
have to say, it’s none of your business, but since it isn’t, I’ll just say
you’re on your own. I mentally wrote the abuse down to use
later, but I have never been good at the memory game.
I was then sucker punched by the woman in blue, hit between the eyes by something exposing deep secrets. Remembering that someone can't give, if you are not taking I shot back with,
“Impossible, I do not know you,” and exited out of back door number two...
Ah... hmm...
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